Two Letters

In the next two or three months, I expect to receive one of these two letters. Not written exactly like this, definitely, but this would pretty much do for the purpose.

Letter Possibility #1:

Dear Ms Bernabe,

Congratulations! You can now move on and plan the rest of your life (or year, at least) because you didn’t get the UK grad school scholarship you’ve been angling for this past year or so. Did you really think you would get it? Huh. Well, it’s over. That ship has sailed. For your peace of mind, we suggest that you just keep those university acceptance letters for posterity, and destroy this scholarship rejection letter away immediately after reading it.

On the bright side, there’s no worry now that you would have to forfeit that Vietnam plane ticket for December. Good thing you took that leap of faith and went and bought the tickets anyway!

Thanks for bothering, and good luck with the rest of your life.

Sincerely,
Postgraduate Admissions Office

Letter Possibility #2:

Dear Ms Bernabe,

Congratulations! Your decision not to get a full-time job and slack off for much of this year is now justified, as you have been accepted for the grad school scholarship for the term starting this September. You can now start worrying about the costs of your plane ticket to the UK, visa applications and initial living expenses, because we definitely won’t be paying for those. You have to get your ass over here first before we start paying your bills. Don’t you now wish that you worked full-time after all, so you’d at least have some savings?

You should also now start (if you haven’t already, which we suspect to be the case) reading up on stuff related to your degree program of Development and Project Planning, as your experience and knowledge on this area is woefully inadequate (we’re actually not sure what we’re thinking, giving you this scholarship).

Please let us know whether you’ll be able to make it after all, and do bear in mind that over here we don’t speak like Jane Austen characters anymore.

Sincerely,
Postgraduate Admissions Office

I suspect that it would be Letter #1; odds and logic definitely warrant it. It’s just that – HOPE, you know? – it’s there. Sticky and clammy and nervous, but it’s there. I can’t tell it to go away and not be so stupid.

Either way can be good for me, really. I know I can make it even without a graduate degree. My life may even be more interesting. But still…

Sigh. I hate not knowing.

4 thoughts on “Two Letters

  1. Scarlett May 27, 2008 at 12:11 pm Reply

    Awww….

    Think positive! Think. Think. Think!

    Everything will be fine.

    Though it’s a torture waiting. and yep, NOT KNOWING.
    🙂

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  2. rina May 28, 2008 at 1:47 pm Reply

    thanks scarlett!🙂

    actually, after writing this post, i haven’t really been fretting about it that much. i just had to vent, he he

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  3. jen July 13, 2008 at 2:51 pm Reply

    hey! i hope you get it! Update us! We will be happy to celebrate with you! Praying that you will get it!

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  4. rina July 13, 2008 at 3:46 pm Reply

    thanks jen! i need all the prayers i can get!

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